I don't know what's going on...

*sigh* I still miss my guys a lot. And I was just thinking today that they're all going off to college next year, I won't have them 10 minutes away to hang out with.

I don't know why I miss them so much, either. This is kind of ridiculous. Apparently I was up for a bout of depression... I have loads of homework, and at the same time I'm managing to fall into a nice emotional slump, just at the time when I need to pick up the pace and practice a TON for drum corps.

Oh my God... if I can just make drum corps, I'll be fine. I swear.

*HEADDESK, MAJORLY*

I just wish there was some sort of uber-accurate way to read what was going on with my emotions, because this confusion is driving me up a wall. Yesterday, it was ATTACK OF THE LIES! and today it's EMPTY HALLS OF PATHETICNESS. Yeah. I just wanna curl up in a ball and cry, but at the same time that's the last thing on Earth I want to do.

*sigh*

OK, drum corps drum corps drum corps... worry about emotions later... drum corps drum corps.

I don't know what's going on...

*sigh* I still miss my guys a lot. And I was just thinking today that they're all going off to college next year, I won't have them 10 minutes away to hang out with.

I don't know why I miss them so much, either. This is kind of ridiculous. Apparently I was up for a bout of depression... I have loads of homework, and at the same time I'm managing to fall into a nice emotional slump, just at the time when I need to pick up the pace and practice a TON for drum corps.

Oh my God... if I can just make drum corps, I'll be fine. I swear.

*HEADDESK, MAJORLY*

I just wish there was some sort of uber-accurate way to read what was going on with my emotions, because this confusion is driving me up a wall. Yesterday, it was ATTACK OF THE LIES! and today it's EMPTY HALLS OF PATHETICNESS. Yeah. I just wanna curl up in a ball and cry, but at the same time that's the last thing on Earth I want to do.

*sigh*

OK, drum corps drum corps drum corps... worry about emotions later... drum corps drum corps.

staggering amounts of WTF-ery

So. I have noted that I have been stressed immensely for the past month, with this week being purely awful, and that a lot of the stress is emotional.

I went back and read some entries back, and I realize I have posted so many things (and a few spelling errors, oops) I never would have probably said before. I'm going to with that because of the distance factor...

But something is awry. I cannot understand why I have been emotionally fucked up for a month. I DON'T KNOW what's going on. I DON'T KNOW what emotions are flapping through my brain like a million bats.

SOMEBODY PLEASE CLARIFY BEFORE I HAVE MY FUCKING GLANDS REMOVED



...grrrrrr...

staggering amounts of WTF-ery

So. I have noted that I have been stressed immensely for the past month, with this week being purely awful, and that a lot of the stress is emotional.

I went back and read some entries back, and I realize I have posted so many things (and a few spelling errors, oops) I never would have probably said before. I'm going to with that because of the distance factor...

But something is awry. I cannot understand why I have been emotionally fucked up for a month. I DON'T KNOW what's going on. I DON'T KNOW what emotions are flapping through my brain like a million bats.

SOMEBODY PLEASE CLARIFY BEFORE I HAVE MY FUCKING GLANDS REMOVED



...grrrrrr...