Just a different outlook

[mercat]

Well, I am officially registered at UD for this fall! Wow... I did not expect college to come so soon. I want to go back to the beginning of Sophomore year, or even Freshman year, knowing what I know now... Yeah, I guess I think in the past too much.

In other news-- I feel a lot less depressed now. Not that I was depressed, I suppose, just a hormone-filled teenager on the low side. Who knows. My paranoia, of course, looking for the pessimistic way out, asks me if I'm not just hiding it all behind a feel-good vibe? I don't know, but I feel a lot better. I'm not sure what happened... just talking about nothing, and listening to Dr. Murray Banks and Dr. Leo Buscaglia. They've got a lot to say to me; I definitely plan to read their books.

One thing that Mr. Buscaglia talks about is that he is a hopeless optimist, ans so on; it feels so strange because I know what he means. I really can't see being really depressed, or giving up; I've kind of already resigned myself to the fact that I will be the nutcase old lady with a gazillion cats and a strange house. But that's okay, I'm definitely looking forward to it.

Hmm... a little poem I wrote:

The tree in the sun shows the jeweled birds;
At night the termites eat at its core.

I wrote a similar one that I might share tomorrow or so, who knows.

Comments

[serenedaydream.livejournal.com]

Congrats on UD! It's so exciting that you're already registered. College really is coming soon.


Good that you're feeling better. Although, it's okay to feel however you do...I feel kind of how you do a lot of times. And being a hopeless optimist sounds like a good thing, in a way.

I like the poem too, and I'd love to hear the others if you want to post them.

[mercat.livejournal.com]

Thank you! =^n.n^= College is way too soon...