I don't know what's going on...

[mercat]

*sigh* I still miss my guys a lot. And I was just thinking today that they're all going off to college next year, I won't have them 10 minutes away to hang out with.

I don't know why I miss them so much, either. This is kind of ridiculous. Apparently I was up for a bout of depression... I have loads of homework, and at the same time I'm managing to fall into a nice emotional slump, just at the time when I need to pick up the pace and practice a TON for drum corps.

Oh my God... if I can just make drum corps, I'll be fine. I swear.

*HEADDESK, MAJORLY*

I just wish there was some sort of uber-accurate way to read what was going on with my emotions, because this confusion is driving me up a wall. Yesterday, it was ATTACK OF THE LIES! and today it's EMPTY HALLS OF PATHETICNESS. Yeah. I just wanna curl up in a ball and cry, but at the same time that's the last thing on Earth I want to do.

*sigh*

OK, drum corps drum corps drum corps... worry about emotions later... drum corps drum corps.

Comments

[hearts-of-hope.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I really hope that you do make drum corps and that everything will be okay.


sigh. I'm really stressed right now, and for some reason that makes me want to work even less. I know what you mean about wanting to curl up and cry, but I am trying to maintain emotional stability.
So at least you're not alone in stress and emotions.
It will all be okay soon enough. I am rooting for you. :)

[mercat.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much... I hope everything works out for you as well! =^n.n^= And thank you for the hugs, lol.

[klezmerking.livejournal.com]

"Yesterday, it was ATTACK OF THE LIES!" if thats referring to ur emotions... same comment i gave last post... you should ignore them less... its not healthy... trust me... i know...

[klezmerking.livejournal.com]

btw... is it possible for you to really truly lie to yourself? or is it possible that you are thinking about things you think that you shouldnt be/never have before?

[mercat.livejournal.com]

I think it is... when I get tired my brain kind of operates on random. Like today, I was working on the photos and all of a sudden my brain was like

"NAUGAHIIIIIDE!"

I'm not even sure what naugahide is, or if I'm spelling it right. Yeah. My brain makes a lot of random connections.

[mercat.livejournal.com]

Nah... I really don't want to go TMI on you, but I have pretty good reason to ignore them for a day or so. =^n.n^=