I don't know what's going on...

[mercat]

*sigh* I still miss my guys a lot. And I was just thinking today that they're all going off to college next year, I won't have them 10 minutes away to hang out with.

I don't know why I miss them so much, either. This is kind of ridiculous. Apparently I was up for a bout of depression... I have loads of homework, and at the same time I'm managing to fall into a nice emotional slump, just at the time when I need to pick up the pace and practice a TON for drum corps.

Oh my God... if I can just make drum corps, I'll be fine. I swear.

*HEADDESK, MAJORLY*

I just wish there was some sort of uber-accurate way to read what was going on with my emotions, because this confusion is driving me up a wall. Yesterday, it was ATTACK OF THE LIES! and today it's EMPTY HALLS OF PATHETICNESS. Yeah. I just wanna curl up in a ball and cry, but at the same time that's the last thing on Earth I want to do.

*sigh*

OK, drum corps drum corps drum corps... worry about emotions later... drum corps drum corps.

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[klezmerking.livejournal.com]

btw... is it possible for you to really truly lie to yourself? or is it possible that you are thinking about things you think that you shouldnt be/never have before?

[mercat.livejournal.com]

I think it is... when I get tired my brain kind of operates on random. Like today, I was working on the photos and all of a sudden my brain was like

"NAUGAHIIIIIDE!"

I'm not even sure what naugahide is, or if I'm spelling it right. Yeah. My brain makes a lot of random connections.