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Uh, so, no word back on the lappy yet, so I'll make this quick.
I am 19. I am not sure I really like it. Not in the sense that I've been 19 for two hours and anything bad has happened, quite to the contrary. But rather, I'm not a "kid" anymore, I'm legally an adult, and I'm not freshly a legal adult, either. I've had a year to work on it. I mean... it's not that I have a problem with being mature. If you know me, you know it's almost the other end of the spectrum.
I just don't want to grow up, you know? In the mind, I mean. I tend to really over-think things, and for some reason this summer I really missed Nana a lot and I've been thinking just about mortality more. We all have to die, and I mean, I don't think I'm going to any time soon, but you never know, it could be tomorrow, right? And there are so very many things I want to do with my life, and it just makes me think of how insignificant my life seems compared to what everything there is to do (not that it's insignificant--everyone has a significance, and together we just make up a very large significance), and how could all these people be bored?
I don't want to go off on this tangent right now, but I do think it might be interesting to live forever.
Anyhoo... my point is... I'm always going to be young at heart, and you're only as young as your heart is. =) I'm going to continue wearing wacky colors and being a dork, and no one can stop me. In fact, just the other day I bought an XL skirt from the kid's section of WalMart because it fit and the colors were awesome.
So, I guess I just wanted to say, it's not that I am choosing to be ignorant of life's questions and answers, nor am I unaware. I am making the educated decision to be a nerdy, fun soul. Age is pretty meaningless, depending on how you act. You are always growing, but you are always dying, and you might be the most mature six year old or the most childish forty year old. But for all those people who don't get the time to know me, because we only meet in passing, I have one year left as a quote-unquote "teen," though I'm an adult, I will insist that as I am nineteen I am still a teen.
So I hope that makes for a substantial enough post until I get my lovely lappy back, and then I will post some more cud for your mental diet. =P
Love y'alls, and I hope your birthdays bring as much awareness and sadness and joy (yin and yang, and so it is) as mine bring. <3
=^n.n^=
I am 19. I am not sure I really like it. Not in the sense that I've been 19 for two hours and anything bad has happened, quite to the contrary. But rather, I'm not a "kid" anymore, I'm legally an adult, and I'm not freshly a legal adult, either. I've had a year to work on it. I mean... it's not that I have a problem with being mature. If you know me, you know it's almost the other end of the spectrum.
I just don't want to grow up, you know? In the mind, I mean. I tend to really over-think things, and for some reason this summer I really missed Nana a lot and I've been thinking just about mortality more. We all have to die, and I mean, I don't think I'm going to any time soon, but you never know, it could be tomorrow, right? And there are so very many things I want to do with my life, and it just makes me think of how insignificant my life seems compared to what everything there is to do (not that it's insignificant--everyone has a significance, and together we just make up a very large significance), and how could all these people be bored?
I don't want to go off on this tangent right now, but I do think it might be interesting to live forever.
Anyhoo... my point is... I'm always going to be young at heart, and you're only as young as your heart is. =) I'm going to continue wearing wacky colors and being a dork, and no one can stop me. In fact, just the other day I bought an XL skirt from the kid's section of WalMart because it fit and the colors were awesome.
So, I guess I just wanted to say, it's not that I am choosing to be ignorant of life's questions and answers, nor am I unaware. I am making the educated decision to be a nerdy, fun soul. Age is pretty meaningless, depending on how you act. You are always growing, but you are always dying, and you might be the most mature six year old or the most childish forty year old. But for all those people who don't get the time to know me, because we only meet in passing, I have one year left as a quote-unquote "teen," though I'm an adult, I will insist that as I am nineteen I am still a teen.
So I hope that makes for a substantial enough post until I get my lovely lappy back, and then I will post some more cud for your mental diet. =P
Love y'alls, and I hope your birthdays bring as much awareness and sadness and joy (yin and yang, and so it is) as mine bring. <3
=^n.n^=
